We don't know what our life is going to look like when we bring our sweet daughter home.
We know she is going to be pretty awesome. We know that we love her, and God loves her so much more---so yeah, we're going to be alright.
I'm learning that not knowing everything is okay.
One day at a time. One step at a time. God is bigger. His plans are a lot better than ours. Yes. Yes, they are.
I am also learning that I shouldn't blog late at night because I get all teary and bleary-eyed, and say things I may regret.
One thing (of many) that we desire for our daughter:
Check out this video of a boy with cerebral palsy running a race at field day, and his socks get blessed off by his classmates. Find your tissues (or if you're like our house, toilet paper works pretty good too).
This video was breaking my heart at first, and then I felt a little better as the clip continued, but it is still sad to me even though this little guy was amazing and so strong. Like most people, I have never liked to see sad things. I have always had this thing when I see someone having a tough time or not being included or looking sad presumably due to them being extra special, I tend to want to 'fix' the situation. It is not that I pity them, but desire to see true happiness radiating on their face because they don't deserve rejection.
Anyway. This video is way cool because all of those kids are the real dill pickles. However, a part of me just gets frustrated that I can't fix his legs. I want him to run like the other kids. I don't want his muscles to hurt as he puts his last bit of energy into finishing the race. I want him to run with ease. I want him to win that race.
Then, I remember again... (I have chronic amnesia in this area)
God has a plan for all of our lives, and it is not about the easiest run and winning the race of life. He has given us all different gifts, and we are made beautiful in His sight.
I don't want to forget that true fulfillment and joy comes from Christ. Not winning the race of life.
How awesome to picture His Church all running together, and picking each other up when we stumble, and fall.
"I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus"
Phil. 3:14
I am going to watch this video first thing when I get home from school! I've found that when I cry it really freaks out my students :) I am praying for your precious daughter! You are right- God has a WONDERFUL plan for all of us, and each plan is different but still wonderful all the same.
ReplyDeletelove you sweet friend!
I just have to say that this makes me smile. :) Before time, God had this journey planned out...just for you!
ReplyDeleteI need reminders often that it's not about life being easy, happy, or comfortable... He makes beauty from ashes and there is so much blessing in that journey. Praying for a certain, sweet little girl daily. :)
ReplyDeleteAMEN! great blubbering......i mean post:) and that's a great reminder for all of us! I too want to FIX my little Wren's ears.....but is it just because that makes my life easier? Maybe God has a plan for her to reach the deaf community??? I pray to be able to communicate fully with her so I can share the gospel with her! If God chooses to Fix her ears...so be it.
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